Thursday, January 12, 2017

Everything Ordinary


Do you ever feel like your life is exactly what you always wanted, but you're just too busy being a stupid human to revel in it? That's me this week. I am so in love with Avalon. She is my most favorite person that I've ever needed consistent breaks from. I'm so in love and yet, I want a new couch. I want a new table, I want to sleep in, I want to skateboard forever. I don't want to be away from her this weekend for a bachelorette party, or ever.

I interviewed a babysitter the other week though. I'm starting to think dragging Avalon to various appointments is more like having a tiny ferret to contain and occupy than an adorably dressed sidekick who is equally invested in knowing the latest information about my neck mole, while also winning over the grouchy receptionist. I'm sure it's not her idea of fun either.

I told the potential sitter that Avalon was 'really funny' when describing her and then, there we all were at the park awkwardly trying to decide if we wanted to keep knowing each other and she stared at Avalon (who was towing a maple leaves behind her thick as hides) and said "So, she's funny?" I could not describe why. "Well, um, she says please: ''Bees' and...she loves the washer and dryer and reading to her 'bebe' and climbing through the bottom of her training potty and...have I totally lost touch with what is actually funny?"

But you know what? I don't care. All those things I worried about happening to me as a mom when I thought I was young and cool enough, like driving a mini van or having worse hair, really don't concern me like I thought they should.

I never want to forget her this way. How her pupils are like moon-saucers that take up almost all of her eyes. How she knows the difference between a silly smile and a curious one. How she says "No!" like she is the head of the family and will make all our decisions going forth. How she dances to traditionally serious songs and lullabies like they're the Macarena, galloping in a circle and bouncing her fists in the air. How she lays her head on me so forcefully and so sweetly when I sing her bedtime song. How she says "WOW!" when she sees an iHop commercial or a really big dog walking down the street. How she calls dogs "Golly Golls", for some reason, and also thinks that is the noise they make ("woof, ruf, gollygoll!"). How she thinks it's funny to throw her baby doll and say "Uh oh!" like it was a complete accident. How she says "Burr" when she goes outside in the cold.

Yes, I suppose none of this is actually that funny, but it is a reminder that, even now as a self-obsessed, aging, loving, idiotic human, I am so thankful for ordinary days.

+Wishing you all a weekend full of them ♥.

8 comments:

  1. So funny to read this when you were that "potential babysitter" for Kai many moons ago. And bringing you into his life was one of the best choices we made -- for all of us. I know the post wasn't entirely about that, but the consistent breaks are just as good as the funny moments sometimes. xx

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    1. I think about you guys all the time and miss you so much. Watching Kai was one of the best times of my life!

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  2. Never. Stop. Writing! You make me see the Avalon in my own daughter! Beautifully written-thanks for sharing.

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    1. Oh Megan, thank you so much. That encouragement stays with me, you don't even know. Thank you!

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  3. No, you're wrong, that is funny, I laughed as I read it, especially the dog bit and the throwing her doll and saying uh-oh. I know I would laugh if I met her. Little people don't much like going places where there is waiting involved though do they. I remember when I took my middle son to the hospital for a check up on his broken elbow. The littlest boy couldn't sit still and fell right over some poor chap's leg. It was in a huge metal brace for some reason. That was a VERY long afternoon. Wishing you a lovely weekend with a little skateboarding time. My biggest boy is all about the skateboarding at the moment. The other two are liking stunt scooting, so we've been spending time at skateparks. If I was as cool as you I could join in too. Love the knitting by the way. Go you! CJ xx

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    1. haha, I'm very happy you were entertained. I always find the stories you tell about your boys to be funny as well. That afternoon at the hospital does sound long, but perhaps is funny now in retrospect. Enjoy those skateparks! I know you could get out there if you wanted to :)

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  4. Oh my goodness, that first sentence. YES. I can't seem to get out of my own head sometimes. I relate 100% to everything you said, as usual. We are in this together.

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    1. Couldn't agree more. So glad I have you to go through this all with.

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