Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Spring Cleaning


Avalon, Scott and I have been cleaning house. Of course, anyone who knows babies knows that means while we've been cleaning, Avalon has been tornadoing through any cabinet without a child lock, but this is her home so I like to think she had a part in its latest makeover. 

I have been feeling so productive and enthusiastic while going though every drawer and cupboard and closet we have (which is not that many, honestly). I want to write that it was like all this anxiety was tangled in my mind since Avalon's birth and Maddie's diagnosis, and every piece of clothing and rug and tupperware container I gave away helped untangle it and set it free. But I'm not sure that's 100% true. Some of it is still there. 

Avalon has an ear infection. She's not been herself for what seems like weeks and sometimes I start worrying again that she'll grow up to despise me and that I'm really no good at this motherhood thing. 

This morning I took her to swim class and later when I was on the phone making a follow up appointment with the pediatrician's office, the RN said, "Well you didn't dunk her under water did you? and I said, "A bunch."

But in the evening there was a podcast about a mom who lives on a storybook farm and cusses more than me. There was a trafficless drive and an end parking space. There was a whistling man vacuuming waiting room carpets, a receptionist named Ruby with lipstick that matched her name and a good doctor who said Avalon's ears looked like they were never infected at all. 

Sometimes my mind seems to be muttering 'you can heal yourself' over and over. So I skate my mini-ramp and give away shirts that will look better on someone else. I don't hold as tightly to things anymore.

All the cards I got for my birthday and Mother's Day said nice things like how much I've grown as a person this year. I try to hang on to those thoughts when the other part of my mind seems to be muttering 'you suck.' :)

 // main things I kept in mind during cleaning (and 
this might be from the book The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up, but I haven't read it. My dad and Scott's mom Carolyn just told me some key points)...

+Take everything out before you start reorganizing a space.
+If it doesn't bring you joy, get rid of it. I added, if l don't find it beautiful, I'm getting rid of it (or hiding it like some of the toiletries I stuffed into little canvas bags under the sink).
+Memories are better than things anyways.
+Thoughts like 'making a home is about slow growth' from this book by Erin Boyle.

 // new items pictured... 

+Coffee Table (a belated Christmas gift and I used my birthday discount!)
+Rug (I waited for it to go on sale)
Chair (thank you neighbor's for leaving it on the side of the road and Scott for bringing it home)
+Mr. Basil Fox Kit
+Wooden Whale Toy (Avalon has been taking apart that shelf on the daily, so I re-did it with pretty things we like to look at that are fine for her to play with). 

//baby gear wrapped up like a plastic turtle...

+Scott took apart all the gear we're keeping, wrapped it in saran wrap, and put it on top of her closet. 

14 comments:

  1. Hey Devon! Just dropping a note. Take it like a high-five or a hug ;) The book, Simple Matters, LOVE IT! And the gal behind Mr.Fox, Alicia, I want to eat a meal at her place and then take a nap under one of her quilts in her back yard. Because you like weather - Minnesota-(for my little river town) sunny, 60's, shimmering lakes too cold to dip toes in yet, and the glorious smell of lilacs everywhere! Love ~ Andrea

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    1. Hi Andrea! I love this note! :) I'm happy to know you've read Simple Matters as well. I love her blog also. Every time I read it I end up cleaning something. The weather in Minnesota sounds perfect. Thank you for painting such a vivid picture of it in my mind <3.

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  2. Love the penultimate photo, so cute, and so inevitable. I have The Magic of Tidying Up or whatever it's called. Haven't read it either. It's cluttering the place up. There's a message in there somewhere. It sounds as if you're doing an absolutely amazing job as a mum. I'm always worrying that the boys will remember all the times I snapped at them or got cross over something and think I was a rubbish mum. Worrying comes with the territory I think! I hope Avalon gets over whatever is bothering her soon. You have reminded me of how sometimes it's just a mystery as to what's wrong. Maybe more teeth? Sometimes mine used to rub their ears when they were teething. My littlest boy got his skateboard out for the first time in ages this evening. He hadn't even got it down the garden path before he went absolutely flying. Lots of howling. Wishing you a yours a good weekend in your lovely decluttered home by the sea. CJ xx

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    1. I've been mulling over this note for days now, CJ. Sorry I've just now had a moment to say thank you for it! More teeth I suspect (and hope) are the culprit. She is finally over the runny nose , so I think that has helped too. Hope your littlest is receiving well from his spill on the skateboard!

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  3. Your pictures are the best!!! I love when I get a notification of a new post=) Your blog is so uplifting and a joy to read alittle bit more about your life...

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    1. This mean the world. Thank you Olivia!

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  4. We just moved to a new city and a new apartment, this apartment is temporary (it belongs to my whole family) but as soon as we got here we spring cleaned the crap out of the place.. It felt like months of pre-move stress disappeared as I looked at a clutter free tv unit and a well organized general storage cupboard.. Honestly I think I love throwing things away just a little too much haha. I love your toy baskets!! And your little girl has gotten so big! My little boy just turned one, he turned one the day before we moved to Durban- we live by the sea now :) :) :) and my husband has started learning to surf.. Feels like ages since I dropped a comment, but been thinking about you and your sister loads! Lots of prayers for her and peace for you xxx

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    1. I hear you on the throwing away of things. Once you start, it's hard to stop! Happy birthday to your boy! Can you believe it? A year! Durban... sounds like a dream <3

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  5. It's a great post. Thanks for sharing

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    1. Thank you Daniel! I hope it was helpful! :)

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  6. You so don't suck. Hold on to those thoughts about how much you've grown and how you're a good mom. They are the truth. :)

    Feels so good to clear out old stuff! Glad you guys have gotten some spring cleaning done. :)

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  7. There really is something cathartic about getting rid of a bunch of stuff :) As usual, a fantastic post from a great photographer and wonderful mum; stay positive gorgeous lady xx

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    1. Awe, Laura. Your words always encourage me and make me feel so good. Thank you!

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