Monday, September 14, 2015

Dream Sequence


I used to take my dolls to school with me in my backpack. Maybe not dolls plural, but then again, maybe it was. I actually think I took my twin Kirsten dolls to stay-away church camp once. I had to hide them inside my sleeping bag so no one would see. Everyone else there thought they were too old for dolls, you know. Fortunately my dolls weren't as loud as my real baby or I would have been given away for sure.

It was fun taking Avalon surfing with me when she was as tiny as a seaweed pod and more safely portable. In the beginning no one else knew she was there either. She was my small secret while we shared the same space. Now I'm on my own when I'm surfing, of course, seeing the sun showoff better than fireworks as it sets, while Scott tries to feed her a bottle at home. I'm not ungrateful for the alone time, although sometimes when I kick out of a long set wave I still say "That was a good one Sprout!" forgetting she can't hear me because she's likely crying her head off at home since she hates the idea of trying to be deceived by silicone. 

I keep having this dream where I'm on a boat, sailing around these sea-stacks that are so tall you can't see the sun at all when you're anywhere near them. It's magical and it's scary. I guess it's kind of like real life. 

Last night I had this dream I was surfing this mysto-wave in some harbor all by myself. It was an amazing left, but the only catch was there was a hammerhead shark below. Then, when I quietly tried to sneak out of the water, two clownfish the size of dolphins kept jumping into my arms. I had to keep throwing them back. How could I explain to them that they belonged in the water and not with me on land? I couldn't, so I ended up batting them away with swim fins that magically appeared in my hands. Then I accidentally hurt one. I think I dreamed this because I've been eating chicken lately.

It's been so hot around here that we have two fans on full-blast in our room. They actually kind of blow your hair around, which is saying a lot since I'm in desperate need of a haircut and basically have dreads by nightfall. This hurricane-inspired weather sure makes for some nice sunsets though. The clouds are like puzzle pieces arranging themselves together while I'm arranging this story in my head. The air clings around you like that new expanding foam insulation I saw on HGTV. There's a helicopter headlight peaking through the cloud-puzzle, disguising itself as the first star in the sky. All the kids are out after school surfing until dark, trying to hold on to summer. I feel like I'm at recess again.

As I come up from the beach, the crickets are out already claiming the night and the sand pipers are squeaking to each other on their way home.

It's so warm I have to take a cold shower when I get back. It kind of makes me feel like I'm waking up from another dream.

8 comments:

  1. Devon, Your writing is different since Sprout. Don't ever stop. Your mind is an interesting place to wander. You make sense.~Andrea

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    1. What a nice thing to say. Thank you Andrea!

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  2. How beautifully you write Devon. It all sounds utterly blissful with you. A little surfing, a little warmth, a little person snuggled up next to you. Maybe it's too warm, but I can't imagine that from here, because it's chilly here now. Enjoy your week. CJ xx

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    1. Thank you CJ! I like thinking about it being cool like it is where you are for the moment, but I will try to enjoy the heat and imagine I'm in a tropical paradise.

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  3. Such beautiful writing and the pictures are just gorgeous!

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  4. It must be so strange for her to be on shore or back at the house while you're out surfing after you were able to carry her with you for so long. But like you've mentioned before, I'm sure in some ways it's nice to have your body to yourself again. And of course you finally get to see her face and get to know her sweet personality. :) So glad life is good, friend!

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  6. I love reading your writing Devon. I finally had a chance to catch up on some posts and I love hearing how you are settling into motherhood (nursing - so frustrating! so hard!) and these new rhythms of life. And these photos are gorgeous!

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