Thursday, July 9, 2015

Wild: The Birth Story of Our Daughter


I once read this article about Sam Beam from the band Iron and Wine. He was talking about how his wife was an artist too, but that after she gave birth to the first of their five daughters she knew she could never create anything as perfect and beautiful with her artwork, so she became a midwife instead. I've never forgotten that. 

The birth of my daughter was different than everything I expected. She wasn't born in June. I took the epidural. I never listened to my birth playlist during the 48 hours it took. In the fourth hour of pushing her into the world, I swore I wanted to give up and that I couldn't do it. I begged for them to use the vacuum to help get her out from behind my small pelvis. Because of the meconium that covered her when she finally emerged, Scott had to cut the umbilical cord immediately instead of waiting three minutes so our daughter could hopefully learn to read and write sooner based on some study I saw on The Today Show. She went into a warming bed to get cleaned and examined before coming to my chest. When she did, I was in utter shock and all I could do was hold her. But of course, now I understand what Sam Beam's wife meant about childbirth more than I ever could. It was the hardest, messiest moment of my life and it was the most beautiful.

The day following her delivery, one of the doctors who first examined me came to our recovery room. Scott was sleeping in the corner on some chair-bed that's comfortability and material reminded me of a restaurant booth. I could feel our first baby's hot breath against my chest as the sun was rising behind the soft, grey marine layer and I was listening to Iron and Wine and crying because I felt all of those details like I never had before. I was different now. The doctor didn't say anything about my tears when she walked to the side of my hospital bed. She just talked to me about how tough the delivery sounded and how proud of me she was even though we only met one night at 3 a.m. while she was examining my cervix. "You were a caterpillar and now you are a butterfly" she told me. And that's the best way I can describe the experience of bringing Avalon Wild into the world.

22 comments:

  1. Gorgeous story. Gorgeous writing. Gorgeous name. Childbirth is both the worst and best thing in the world. So happy for all three of you.

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  2. Labor and delivery...a beautiful mess. Congratulations on your masterpiece...she's so, so lucky to have you.

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  3. What an amazing story. You did so well Devon, and what a very beautiful name, I love it. We live not too far from the ancient Isle of Avalon. It's a very beautiful place, heavy with the legend of King Arthur. I think you'd like it there. Maybe one day you'll come and visit Avalon and Devon as well, two very lovely places. Congratulations again to you both, good job!

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  4. Oh Devon, you have such a beautiful way with words that constantly inspires me and makes me jealous, in equal measure. Also, Avalon Wild is a beautiful name. Sending you and your beautiful family all the luck and love xx

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  5. Hah - the restaurant booth chair is the best (and most accurate) description I've heard of that awful thing.

    & for how long that labor took - you are a rockstar! I hope you guys are doing well and adjusting quickly!

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  6. I must admit...I have become so used to the name Sprout reading about your pregnancy these months, that she would have another name took me by surprise! A beautiful story, a beautiful name, and a beautiful family!

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  7. You always know the perfect way to express a moment in words, Devon:) Love this, and I LOVE her name! It's beautiful. I'm sorry the birth was so tough. We had a birthing class last night and watched a birth video. It scared me a bit. I know everyone says that you forget the pain, and I hope that's true:) I'm sure it is once you see that little face stare up at you. But you did it and she's here! Congratulations!

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  8. Oh this is so beautiful! As terrible as labor and delivery sounds, it is such a beautiful thing. I like that you called it a beautiful mess. Also, her name... just beautiful. What a perfect name!

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  9. Birth truly is nothing and everything like we expect it to be. Birth plans go out the window so often, but the beauty that we know awaits us on the other side of the birth experience is always what we knew it would be... or better. Great job, mama! Bringing her into the world will forever be one of your greatest accomplishments. Carrying and delivering Presley is definitely one of mine. Congratulations, and welcome to the world, Avalon Wild!

    P.S. Did you get my e-mail? When you announced the name on FB, I started tearing up!

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  10. Perfect. What a perfect post. So happy for you guys. xx

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  11. Lovely words. I was only in active labor for a few hours so you are a champ for having gone through it for 48. She's lucky to have such amazing parents, and one really strong mommy. Welcome, Avalon Wild! :)

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  12. I'm crying at work. Girl your words are so real and touching. Such beautiful writing you Beautiful butterfly!!

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  13. Loved reading your story. I'm glad you decided to share it here on blogland. Enjoy every second of your beautiful girl!

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  14. This got me all so choked up! So happy for you three and could you have picked a more beautiful, amazing, adventure-bound name? Congrats beautiful mama :)

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  15. Amazing! A beautiful story and name for your daughter. Congratulations again!

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  16. WOW, she is beautiful! I think my uterus just skipped a beating looking at her. Congratulations to all of your family, and welcome to the world Avalon Wild (lovely name). Stacie.

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  17. NOTHING is more amazing than meeting your child for the very first time! Such an awe moment of wonder....

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  18. This whole post is just beautiful . Avalon Wild...that name is perfection. Congratulations to you and Scott!

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  19. Amazing! Beautiful! Touching! Raw! Love! SOOOO HAPPY for you! <3

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  20. This made me all weepy eyed at work. I am so proud of you, happy for you and Scott and so excited for your little girl to be IN this world. You are going to teach her so much, love her so much and just thrive as a family! I can't wait to follow the journey! Congratulations!!! oxox

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  21. I don't know how I missed this post, but I love it and am so happy for you! Love the name you chose too! Congratulations Devon!!!

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