Friday, June 26, 2015

Dear Sprout,


Dear Sprout,

Today was an important day. I mean, I guess it was just like yesterday. Here we are waking up, waiting for you, but all the days seem different since you've been here; bigger somehow.

I know the doctor says it's not possible, but I always worry I'm going to squish you in the night by rolling over on my tummy. You are getting really big lately. I'm sure in the grand scheme of this whole thing, your life and all, that you being about the size of one of those tiny lap dogs they let people bring on planes is nothing. But still, when I wake up I always try to get you to stir and then I tell you I love you. 

We went to the doctor today. Your daddy worked from home and came with us. The doctor said you could be here any time. When I hear this, I think about what it will be like to kiss your skin and see your eyes and I get excited to bring you to the home that will be ours.

On the way back from the appointment Daddy and I bought raspberry tea and jumped in the ocean in our clothes.

I wanted to take in the ocean's power. I figured I was going to need it soon, but instead its calmness is what stayed with me; the tiny sand crabs like teeth in the sand, the ripples in between the big waves, how everything sounds quieter underwater. 

There are things I won't be able to recall about this pregnancy, and truthfully I hope it's part of the pain that comes at the end, but I want to remember the way your small foot felt pressing against my hand. That was the first way we knew you. 

I have been waiting for you all of my life. Your daddy and I both have. We can't believe you're almost here. 

Love, 
me, your mom

8 comments:

  1. Devon, I love that top photo! I also love how the ocean is such a big part of you and your life, and how it seems to know what you need, even when you don't! Have a great weekend x

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    1. Thanks Laura! You are right, it does seem to know more of what I need than I do! Hope you have a good weekend too!

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  2. Oh my goodness, this made me tear up. So precious. I am so excited for you guys to meet Sprout so soon!

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    1. I can't believe it is actually going to happen--meeting Sprout! It seems so surreal.

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  3. What a beautiful letter Devon, you've made me sniff a little. Wonderful photos too, you look happy and relaxed. Wishing you a good weekend. CJ xx

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    1. I am trying to relax, it's not so easy though with this big unknown approaching. The ocean helps though! Wishing you a good weekend too CJ!

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  4. Love this! Can't wait to meet you, Sprout!

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