Monday, December 22, 2014

Dear Sprout, First Appointments




November 7th, 2014

Dear Sprout,

Approximately four cases of Ebola have been reported in the US, but when you type "how" into the search box of Google the first thing it suggests is "how...is ebola spread". Every time we go to an appointment they ask me if I've been to West Africa or been around anyone who has lately. My answer is always "No", but the funny thing is that every time they mention West Africa I start day dreaming about what it would be like to go there. 

Our first appointment was scary for us. Daddy and I were holding hands, but for a minute they couldn't find you since you were so small and we were at our first appointment a week early, according to the midwife. Then we heard a heartbeat, and I asked quickly if it was yours or mine and the midwife said it could be mine, so we sat there holding our hands and breath and wondering if you were ok.

Once she was done checking on you she said, actually I've never heard a woman's heartbeat in her uterus before, so that must have been the baby's. Then she took my pulse and declared that, of course, it had been your heartbeat since my heart rate was 80 and yours had been 120. I asked her if we could do the ultrasound again, since everything had been so confusing the first time, but she said no, shook her head to make sure I knew she meant it, and then scooted the machine out into the hall, calling on a lady named Glenda to come and get it. I kind of wanted to kick her since she also thought you were smaller and younger than I thought you were and majorly freaked me out. We loved you either way, but I was definitely a little concerned over the weekend. Thankfully Daddy, Basia and Nicole were there to distract me while we were camping.

I have kicked a lady once before, and I really shouldn't tell you this, but since I am, you should know that she deserved it. She shoved her way in front of my dad at a concert and pushed me when I told her politely that this was one of my dad's favorite bands and that we had been standing here all night waiting to hear them. When she yelled mean words in my face, I kicked her right in the shin. When she tried to retaliate the rest of the crowd absorbed her, like waves do a kelp bulb, before the wind from her swing could even flutter my hair back.

Anyways, our next appointments were much better. We got a nice doctor and midwife we hope to keep until you're here. 

I wonder if you know me. I wonder if you hear me. I don't wonder if you are like me, because I know you are. Hopefully you don't inherit my bad temper or my bad spelling. When I saw you moving around on the doctor's little TV called a sonogram, I felt I knew you exactly. As though I've known you forever and have always loved you. 

Love, 
me--your mom

p.s. Santa Cruz Camping part II 


it was so crowded at Pleasure Point, Sprout, you and I stayed on the cliff and watched daddy try to dodge clueless beginners

p.p.s. wishing you all the merriest Christmas and happy holidays! 

18 comments:

  1. Fun, Fun, FUN!! [camping part]
    minus the kicking and mean ladies part - that's just downright UGH!
    yeah, those momma hormones are gonna flare up when you least expect them to.
    I haven't camped in probably 12 years or something like that - maybe it's time to plan a trip to the great outdoors up now that we have a 5 year old ;)
    Glad y'all found a good doctor. It really makes all the difference.
    And in case I don't get to tell you,
    Merry Christmas, friend!!!

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    1. Bet your 5 year old would love camping! I think that's right around the time my dad started taking me. And yes, the new, nice doctor has made such difference. Thanks Misty and Merry Christmas to you and your family too!

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  2. I love these letters to Sprout:) She/He is going to love to read these some day. Looks like a great camping trip, too!

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    1. He/She may be like "you crazy mom!"... we'll see. Merry Christmas Kari!

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  3. What a lovely letter, I'm glad you've found a doctor and midwife that you like. Honestly, sometimes I don't think they are at all thoughtful. And well done on holding your place in that queue, you're cool as a cucumber. Camping looks like lots of fun. My middle boy is desperate to go. I shall have to take him one of these days. I hope you and Scott have a really wonderful Christmas. CJ xx

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    1. In hindsight it wasn't that terrible of an appointment, but it was kind of rattling for our first experience. Especially since I've been extra sensitive about anything being wrong. I think camping around your home wouldn't be anything but memorable and magical. Although, I'm guessing it would be most pleasant in the spring or summer. Merry Christmas to you and your family too, CJ!

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  4. Hmmmm, I'm not sure if my comment went through or just disappeared so I'm going to try again :-)

    Congratulations to you and Scott!! I'm just reading about your wonderful news now and I'm so excited for you and this next adventure. I'm so happy for you! I love this idea of writing an idea to your baby. What a great way to capture your thoughts and memories. I wish that I had done more of that. Merry Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

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    1. Thank you Christine! I think it's been a few years since we've been reading each other's blogs on the internet, so it's exciting sharing news like this with you. Merry Christmas and happy New Year to you too!

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  5. Hi Devon,

    I'm a long time reader, but haven't commented before. I'm a women's health nurse practitioner and I take care of women and their babies throughout their pregnancy, and everyday I do those first ultrasounds and go over everything with the new mom. I always try to be sensitive and excited for the parents and remember that while this is just a typical work day for me, it's such an important moment for them, seeing their baby for the first time. (Sometimes in subsequent visits I'll sneak them back into the ultrasound room to take an extra peak if there's enough time). Anyway, I just wanted to tell you I'm so sorry to hear about your first experience. It made me cringe when I read that. And it's very common to hear the mother's heart beat through the uterus, so I'm glad to hear you've found a place more sensitive and supportive to go. Just know we're not all like that and it really is a privilege and a joy to be involved in something so personal and special to our patients!

    Additionally, thanks for sharing your exciting news with your readers here. We're all excited to follow along and wish you the best in the coming months. Congratulations!

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    1. Thanks for this note Ellen. It was nice and interesting to hear your perspective as a health practitioner. It sounds like you treat your patients with respect and kindness. I realize, after going through a few appointments, how important it is to have someone like you who you can trust to help you go through this experience. Thank you again for your encouragement and sweet words. It is very appreciated!

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  6. I also day dream about going to africa....darn ebola...maybe by the time i can (which will be after nursing school) it will be more contained. Also, I love that you don't even check your mail. I'm the same, I only grab it if its over flowing out of the box. Even then most of it just goes into the trash... #yoursupercool. :) Merry Christmas and I love hearing about your new little one!

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    1. haha! Glad I'm not alone! Getting the mail is like my least favorite chore most of the year.

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  7. Aw beautiful post! And a huge congrats to you Momma to be! Merry Christmas!

    xo

    Michaela

    http://michaelajeanblog.com

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    1. Thanks Michaela Jean! Merry Christmas!

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  8. So holy smokes! I am catching up on my reading and ahhhh!!!! I read there is a baby on board! Devon, I am so happy for you! You and your hubby seem like such a sweet good people and I love it when great things happen to good people. This awesome! Congrats, belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

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  9. Oh my goodness, I can't imagine how scary that must have been at that first appointment! I'm so glad you have a good midwife and doctor now! Also, I love that your little one with have these letters to look back on someday. I bet she or he will love hearing about the time their momma kicked a stranger. ;)

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