Where are we headed? Probably about as far from home as we can get. My dad is turning 60. His mom only lived to 56, his birth father only lived into his 20s. He wants to celebrate his life, but not in a surprise party kind of way, you know? He's not the type. He loves adventure and I love that about him. He's a big part of why I love it, too.
To honor his adventurous spirit, we are flying to the Seychelles and chartering a sailboat as a family for two weeks. We've done this a few times before, but usually to safer destinations in the Caribbean. Where are the Seychelles?
Right next to Somalia. You know, where all the pirates are.
I have fears. Some of them are so scary I don't even want to mention them. One of them is the pirates kidnapping our whole family. There, I said it. Crap. I hope that doesn't happen.
I think I always have fears when I travel, though. Remember last year when I was freaking out about losing my mind on our road trip? That trip turned out to be one of the best trips we've ever done. I have my routine at home and I find a lot of comfort in it, but that is exactly the reason traveling is so important. I need to get away from comfortable for a while. I need to see new things, different ways and places people live, the ways I will react in new situations and the ways the people I will, too. Hiking a long hike, making dinner as a group, sailing in troubled waters. All of these experiences help you know more about life. There's a lot that goes into shipping yourself off for two weeks, but even if I'm not physically prepared, I think I've been mentally ready for this journey for a while.
I want a lot of things for myself on this vacation:
- Less need for instant gratification (as it is, I can't even stand around and wait for the Brita to filter a cup of water!). I think being away from blogging and social media will help with this. Thank you all for your input on this topic! It really helped convince me that I should take a true vacation-a vacation from everything, and not feel bad about it.
- Freedom to just be. I don't want to feel self-inflicted pressure to constantly be working on or achieving something (unless it's just a nice tan!)
- Real presence in moments where I'm able to focus on one thing at a time. My sister in-law took me meditating once and this was the goal. She told me, "Pick one intention for your day and then think only about that while you meditate for 15 minutes." She picked listening and I copied her because I thought it sounded like a good one for me too. I lasted about three minutes thinking about listening before my mind wandered to how I needed to make a dentist appointment when we got back.
I'm sure the trip won't be able to deliver on all of this, but I know some progress is possible. Some progress is always possible. I think that's one of the things I love most about life. No matter what, you always have the ability to make things better. And that is an adventure in itself.