Monday, March 11, 2013

This Weekend I Went to The Film Festival

     
     This weekend we went to a wedding, a surf contest for the kids I coach and a film festival. The film festival I wanted my movie to be in, to be specific. And you know what? It wasn't all that bad. I mean, I was still sort of feeling sorry for myself in the car as we drove there, sitting silently in the passenger seat playing somber songs like "Stacks" by Bon Iver, but the important thing is, I put on a pink dress and a (half) smile and we went. I just knew I needed to, if only to prove to myself that I could. 

     Truthfully, I kind of wanted it to be over as soon as we arrived and I think it's because I still have some growing to do in this area as a person (not taking things personally, letting stuff go...). It was hard knowing how cool it would have been if my film had been shown too (I mean, check out this venue. A surfboard ceiling? It's just...awesome!). But! I can say it was a good experience. 

     Some of the other films shown will stay with me. There was a really funny one about surfers from New York that gave me a different perspective on surfing and its own subcultures. None of the women in it had blonde hair or wore flip flops or clothing with recognizable surf logos.They had their own surf image that was unique to their city surroundings. One of these ladies even admitted she needed to see a therapist because of surf addiction! I never knew therapists would even know what to say about something like that. 

     A part of me really felt they should have shown my film (hey, you have to root for yourself!) and that was hard to swallow, but I like moments like this that really amplify your feelings, even when they aren't your happiest. Most Saturday nights I'm not attending film festivals that didn't accept my work and doing so brought about feelings I hadn't felt before. If you ask me, any experience that allows you to feel something you haven't felt before is worthwhile. In the least, these moments help you grow as a person and know yourself better. 
How was your weekend?

14 comments:

  1. Good for you for going! I would have been a sour puss about it and missed a great opportunity. For just that ceiling alone it would have been worth the journey out to the festival. What I really like here though? the description of the NY surfers, "none of them had blonde hair or wore flip flops...." ha ha ha! This just made me laugh because I understand completely what you mean! As a long time climber I just would automatically ASSUME all climbers looked alike. Spotted a mile away with their climber bum clothing etc. no matter where you are, you can spot them, see yourself in them somehow. How refreshing and funny to make this observation :) Enjoy your blog very much!

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  2. saw your film. it was epic. shoulda been in there. you're awesome!

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  3. you are so brave still going to the festival. i really don't know that i would have been strong enough to face that. way to go girl!

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  4. Good for you for taking the high, classy road. Just enjoy all that you can and move forward in your life. That's all you can really do, anyhow. =)

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  5. If you didn't see my comment from your guest post I absolutely LOVED your film!! You were brave to go to the festival and you are right...as long as we take something away from an experience it has to be a good thing. Love that picture of you too!

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  6. Well...You looked adorable. Cute dress!


    =) Brooke

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  7. You couldn't have said it better or had a more positive attitude...personal growth. And someday it will be your turn and you may just have a laugh about that Saturday night.


    Cheers!

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  8. That ceiling is amazing!

    Take this experience and use it for future inspiration. Like you said it's one of those things you never know until you force yourself to try. You've taken great leaps to follow your dreams and continuing to push only makes more happen.

    You know until recently I had NO idea there was even a surf culture in NY. My best friend's husband had planned an entire trip around the recent surf competition that was going to be happening up there. And all I could think was? visit NYC and go to a surfing competition? *MIND BLOWN* That would be awesome and amazing. :)

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  9. I think it's great that you still went. Like blogging, I'm sure the surfing community can be close and tight knit (with certain people, at least), and in the end, it's important to invest in those communities.

    You look great, by the way! I want to see a better photo of your dress!

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  10. It was very mature of you to still attend the film festival even though your film was not accepted. Glad you learned something new from the experience! And remember, it's all subjective, art is subjective. What didn't work for them this year doesn't mean it won't work for them next year. What I'm trying to say is, don't change who you are, or the films you want to make, because of THEM. Maybe we can all improve technically in something, but the heart and soul of our art should never cater to anyone. :D. We had a great weekend because it was sunny and 60. Went outside, went to the pool (albeit indoors), and spent time with friends.

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  11. Good for you for going. I know that must have been hard, but you got a really cool picture out of it:) Why do learning experiences always have to be from the obstacles we face? I'd be just as happy learning a valuable lesson because something awesome happened. You should still be really proud of yourself--look at the impact you've made on all of your blog friends:)

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  12. haha. Surf culture in NYC is quite unique. I'm glad that you went to the festival and I can imagine that it was hard. But I think that what you were feeling only goes to show how much you care about this and about your work. Definitely an opportunity to learn and grow and explore some more. And that ceiling is amazing.

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  13. Sorry to hear that your film got "rejected", I just watched it over at La Mia Vita and really enjoyed it! Good work! There is always a next time!!
    Kristina x

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  14. I truly believe the only way to grow is to put yourself in a situation in which you feel you could do better and allow yourself to be taught by it. So, congratulations on doing that. Having your film shown would've been awesome, but this new experience was probably valuable in its own right.

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