Your wedding day goes by too quickly. People warned me of this, but I didn't really think too long and hard about what to do with the information.
I remember how spiritual and full circle the ceremony was. It was an hour and a half total, but it honestly felt like an entire day (maybe for some of the guests too). I felt like everything was moving in slow motion. I saw every color in Scott's eyes. Saw the moment when we first kissed, when I hoped I would see him everyday for the rest of my life. I remembered what it felt like to understand love as a child and felt it so strongly right then. All my grandparents related to me by blood had died by this day, Scott's paternal grandfather too, but they were there. I knew they were there like I knew my dress was white and the church we were in was the place we were meant to be married. I could feel them around us.
When the ceremony was over, we exited the church, as you do. We made eye contact as we left with all the people who had helped to make us who we are. Time seemed to move so quickly then and many of my memories of conversations blur together. We took the group photos and drove to the reception at my parent's house. When we entered, we did so to the song "Sweet Disposition" by Temper Trap. These are the things I remember. After greeting many of the guests we were pulled away to take our couple photos and time slowed down again. Every time I was with Scott on our wedding day, I felt we were creating memories that would stay in my mind for the rest of my life and during this memory making, time crawled in the best kind of way. We talked about baseball while the photographer did his job, which is funny because I don't typically care about that sport much.
I hope I'm not making you gag.
There's more to say about that day. The speeches were another moment when I felt if I died right after, I would have done so as a very complete and happy person. Some of the people we love most in our lives, Scott's best friend Jason, our best man, my sisters, the maids of honor, and my dad all got up and expressed how they loved us. I always think about how important it is to tell the people in your lives what they mean to you, so if something happens to you, they knew what they meant to you. It felt almost like an out of body experience listening to the speeches. I felt again that strong spiritual presence. That overwhelming feeling of love. A deep kind of satisfaction.
There's more, including our whole wedding party getting up on stage and rapping to "Empire State of Mind" by Jay-Z. I'll get to that later, though. I'm not quite ready to write about the rest of the wedding yet. I honestly had a really hard time when it was over. The cops came to shut our party down at 11:30 p.m. because of noise complaints (lame neighbors) and I cried like my glass slippers had just turned back to servant shoes. It was kind of embarrassing, but also just that kind of day where 24 hours weren't enough. At least if I can keep writing about it I get to return to this day. Thanks for coming along.