Monday, April 16, 2012

Views from the Soul

      I was in a bit of a funk at certain points this weekend and I don't know why. That's not true, I know it's because I found out my Great Aunt Jody has cancer. She's 83 and sometimes when I think about people in that age group my first thought is-they're lucky to have made it that far, because my nonny died when she was 72 and my poppy at 65, and my Grandma Jo at 57 (things I only remember when I'm not pretending to forget). Well, anyways, this is something I used to think about 80 plus year olds with diseases, but now I feel heart sick about Aunt Jody.

     I'm writing all these ramblings in my backyard on a Sunday as I sit on our indo balance board and sway back and forth in the last hours of sunlight, reflecting on our weekend. It's not like I was sad all weekend, just acutely aware of mortality and change and endings.

      It was probably for the better though, since I really paid extra attention to the wonderful qualities of the ones I loved while we spent time together this weekend. For instance, my dad gets so excited about projects. After I told him about this idea I had to "surf ourselves through the decades" by riding different boards from every era of surfing, he downloaded every old surf movie Netflix had. I love that. We spent all Friday evening watching them.

     On Saturday, we went to Kevin's house for dinner. He is my dad's best friend, but I feel he is one of mine too. Kevin really enjoys cooking for friends. My dad told me he had been preparing some of the food since Thursday night! It was delicious, especially because you could tell how much love had gone into it. 
     At the dinner party, I noticed how appreciative Scott is. He approaches all situations with gratitude. I hope I'm learning from his ways.

     On Sunday, my mom came home from a sorority reunion. She got back in time to see our last waves before we finished surfing. As we came up from the beach, she complimented all of us on our rides. She really loves making others feel good. 

     By mid-Sunday I was missing my sisters and my friends. Two of my friends from college, Nell and Nicole, got engaged. As happy as I was for them I couldn't help feeling a twinge of sadness that I wasn't with them to celebrate. Scott helped this situation by giving me a plane ticket up to see one of them for Bay to Breakers in San Francisco. 

     That was basically our weekend. Now the sun has gone behind our house and the backyard is wearing a shadow. Somewhere deep down I wish my mom was inside cooking chicken, even though I'm a vegetarian. And in this moment I realize that this weekend was really about feeling very alive. 

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  1. i really needed to read this post for some reason. it really touched me. do you live directly on the beach?!

    1. Hey Lesley,
      The top picture of me writing is in my backyard and the 3 bottom pics were taken in my parent's backyard. They live on the beach and Scott and I live down the street not on the beach.

  2. I am so sorry to read the news about your great aunt. But what an accomplishment to live a long life as she has.
    I was just reminiscing yesterday about one of our best friends that passed away 2 years ago at the age of 23. At the time it seemed very cruel that his life should end so early. But honestly, God is not cruel. Death is just apart of this life on earth.... but it is the perfect reminder to live our life to the fullest each second. And to appreciate the big AND the little things.
    Beautiful post!

  3. I am sorry about your Aunt. My mom has battled with breast cancer (and won!) but it really makes you appreciate little things that you might not notice otherwise. It is a bit sad that it takes something so huge to make us see them though.
    I am hoping for the best for her.

  4. Devon, this is so touching. I know that my Grammy loves you very much. Thank you for your continued support for our family. Love you!

  5. Hi there, new reader here! First off, my heart goes out to you and your aunt. Cancer can be a very scary thing and I know first hand how painful it can be to deal with and watch loved ones go through it as well. But also, I'm writing this comment to say that I love your blog. You definitely have a new follower here.

    It is so refreshing to find another blogger with such passion for the ocean. Reading your blog today has inspired me to get back in touch with the ocean because I feel as though I've been so caught up with work, school, kids, and life that I've forgotten who I am and where I came from.

    Thank you for inspiring me and for writing such wonderful posts.

    ♥ Duckie.

  6. Gah. I just love your writing. SO much. I have so many things I need to post. I write them down, but I never post them. Thank you for inspiring me to really write again. It's been a while.
    Oh, Just Living the Dream

  7. Wow, Dev, your parent's backyard is the bomb diggity! What an amazing piece of property.

    I think you did the best thing we can do when confronted with disease and mortality---use it as fuel to appreciate life & health & those around us.

    Virtual Hugs,
    (which won't make you feel awkward...haha)

  8. What amazing photos! Thank you so much for linking up with me and sharing this! It is going to be happening bi-weekly so feel free to share again!

    The Weekend File

  9. beautiful photos! i just found your blog, i love it! i love the name & the whole design. i find it so inspiring you quit your job to follow your dreams! i went to school in san diego too! i currently live in the OC now! new follower!

    xo Kelly

  10. I would like to thanks a ton for the work you've put in writing this web site. I am hoping the same high-grade webpage post from you in the upcoming also. The fact is your original writing abilities has inspired me to get my own site now. Actually the blogging is spreading its wings fast. Your write up is the best example of it.

  11. Dev, my heart goes out to you, and I'm sending good vibes. I hope all goes as well as possible for your great aunt. However, it sounds like despite the bad news and melancholy moments of the weekend, you also took time to look around and appreciate the goodness around you. Life is beautiful, isn't it?

    I know you don't hug, but I do, so I'm sending you an air hug. Take it or leave it. If anything, just enjoy that I'd look like a fool for you. ;-)

  12. Great pictures!


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